How could you still love someone you never had? How could I?

Maybe there will always be a part of me that will long for you. Or maybe not. 

There was a time when I lost myself in a relationship but time passed by and I became a different person. Experiences change me and I just can't go back to where I came from because I don't recognize myself back then anymore. It wasn't me. I can't believe I did that. I was so immature, stupid, and so impulsive.

Things are different now yet I'm still capable of loving selflessly. 

It feels good to love... even in secret.

But maybe I'm in love no more. Maybe I'm just missing the feeling.

Well, I think the last two sentences seem more legit.