Saturday, October 16, 2010

It'll Always Be You

Am I afraid to love?

Do I have nothing to give?

Is there someone from above?

Whom I could truly believe?


Why do I need to refuse

Someone who really cares

Why do I need to choose

Someone who is not there


Some people settle for less

Some people ask for more

But all I want is your caress

And to hear you knock on my door


Every time I'm with a guy

I always wish he is you

But all I do is to cry

And you never had a clue


I'm never afraid to love

And I believe my God above

Even if He didn't give you to me

I'm still here waiting patiently


And if that time never came

My heart will be broken

Still I'll be shouting your name

And my love for you shall remain


- eLein

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Just one chance... :)




Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Be my Valentine Rose

Red roses were her favorites. Her name was also Rose.
Every year her husband sent them, tied with pretty bows.
The year he died, the roses were delivered to her door.
The card said, “Be my Valentine,” like all the years before.

Each year he sent her roses, and the note would always say,
“I love you even more this year, than last year on this day.
My love for you will always grow, with every passing year.”
She knew this was the last time that the roses would appear.

She thought, he ordered roses in advance before this day.
Her loving husband did not know that he would pass away.
He always liked to do things early, way before the time.
Then, if he got too busy, everything would work out fine.

She cut the stems, and placed them in a very special vase.
Then, placed the vase beside the portrait of his smiling face.
She would sit for hours, in her husband’s favorite chair.
While staring at his picture, and looking at the roses there.

A year went by, and it was hard to live without her mate.
With loneliness and solitude, that had become her fate.
Then, the very hour, as on Valentines before.
The doorbell rang, and there were roses, sitting by her door.

She brought the roses in, and then just looked at them in shock.
Then, went to get the telephone, to call the florist shop.
The owner answered, and she asked him, if he would explain,
Why would someone do this to her, causing her such pain?

“I know your husband passed away, more than a year ago,”
The owner said, “I knew you would call, and you would want to know.
“The flowers you received today, were paid for in advance.
Your husband always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance.”

“There is a standing order, which I have on file down here,
and he has paid, well in advance, you will get the roses every year.
There also is another thing, which I think you should know,
He wrote a special little card…he did this many years ago.

Then, should ever, I find out that he is no longer here,
That is the card…that should be sent, to you the following year.”
She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears was now flowing hard.
Her fingers were shaking, as she slowly reached to get the card.

Inside the card, she saw that he had written her a note.
Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what he wrote…
“Hello my love, I know it is been a year since I have been gone,
I hope it has not been too hard for you to overcome.

I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real.
For if it was the other way, I know how I would feel.
The love we shared made everything so beautiful in life.
I loved you more than words could say, you were the perfect wife.

You were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every need.
I know it is only been a year, but please try not to grieve.
I want you to be happy, even when you shed your tears.
That is why the roses will be sent to you for years.

When you get these roses, think of all the happiness,
that we had together, and how both of us were blessed.
I have always loved you and I know I always will.
However, my love, you must go on, you have some living still.

Please… try to find happiness, while living out your days.
I know it is not easy, but I hope you find some ways.
The roses will come every year, and they will only stop,
when your door is not answered, when the florist stops to knock.

He will come five times that day, in case you have gone out.
But after his last visit, he will know without a doubt,
to take the roses to the place, where I have instructed him,
and place the roses where we are, together once again.”

by Line Kjergaard

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Oh, I so love this poem. :’)

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Sa AS Lobby

Ako'y nakaupong nag-iisa

Nagmumuni-muni, nakatulala

Pinagmamasdan ang bawat dumaraan

Mataba, payat at hindi kagandahan

At doon sa tabi'y may naghahalakhakan


Ako'y nagising mula sa pagkaidlip

Bakit ba madalas akong naiinip?

Ikaw lang naman ang aking hinihintay

Siguro nga talagang limot mo na

Pero eto ako, tangang naghihintay pa


Isa lang naman ang tangi kong hiling

Kahit saglit, ika'y makapiling

Pero bakit mo ba ipinagkakait?

Isang yakap lang, matamis mong halik

At magpawalang hanggan mong pag-ibig

- Micah Elein C. Resos

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I wrote this poem on October 8, 2010 at AS lobby during lunch break.

This was what boredom can do. O.o

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Hell

I heard a saying that true friends understand you, that they will always be there for you no matter what but now I just noticed that is not definitely true. How can my true friends understand me if I can’t understand even my own self?

HOPE.. They say that this world is full of hope. Well, when it comes to hoping I can hope forever but the question is, until when will I hope? until there’s no life left in me? until I realized that everything I hoped for is a LIE?!

Do I need a reason to feel alone, sad, and weak? Aren’t they enough to explain why I feel this way? Why I feel worthless and miserable? Do I need to have a CERTAIN reason?! Do I?!

Sometimes, even if the answer is already in front of your face waiting to be noticed, there will be a time that you’ll feel that uncertainty. The doubt that you never think you’ll ever feel. Yes, I doubt myself. I doubt everyone around me. Maybe I’m right.. Somehow.. That I can’t trust anyone.. Even the closest person I have. Even me, myself..

I’m in hell.. Fire is burning inside my body and no one can see it.. Only myself and the One above.. But what hurts me is that I don’t know how to seek help from Him..

Strangle me..

I don’t want to breathe..

I want to be numb..

Kill me instead..

If life-after-death is true, where will I go?

Where do I want to go?

I want to go to heaven.. Everyone does.. But how could I go there if in this world “full of hope”, EVIL reigns? That even a Christian like me is being devoured..

Where is the LOVE? I can’t feel it.. I just CAN’T.