She's More Than That

"i like your body the way it is. you're hot." as usual, he'd tell her over and over again as if that would get him down her pants.

"is that the only thing you like and want from me? my body?" she asked nonchalantly. she was used to it, to guys who look at her like she was nothing but a piece of meat.

"of course not. i like you as you are. im just really attracted to you physically. don't you know that you have the power to evoke desires? to turn me on?" damn. she didn't like this topic. it made her squeamish especially after hearing it from a guy she never liked, a guy that wasn't even worthy of her admiration.

"oh really? okay." she tried to stop the conversation.

"yes. why? aren't you even flattered?" obviously, her attempt didn't work.

"uhm.. actually, it's awkward to know that a guy feels that towards me."

"why? don't you ever feel that towards anybody?" whoa. and now, he was curious about what turns her on.

"of course i do." she replied hastily.

"good. at least you're not a hypocrite. so, do you do it alone?" it was getting queasier.

"no. i don't." she asserted.

"really? that's not possible. you should know how great the feeling is. sometimes you should release that sexual tension" maybe he was thinking that this topic could turn her on but hell no, a guy like him can't even make her go giddy.

"well, i know a feeling that is far greater than it. besides, when i feel like it, i release it through God. i jst pray and He will take the tension away." she smiled confidently.

"oh? well, i would love to turn you on and make you feel the greatest desire you could ever get." confidence was what made it seductive but it wasn't that simple and easy to seduce and attract her unless he was the guy of her dreams.

"so what are you trying to tell me?" she chose not to retort and pretended she didn't get what he meant instead. he didn't reply.

she got it. that some guys wanted to try her, to touch her, to taste her. but she was sorry for them. for him in particular because whatever he does, he can never have what he desires from her. she is better than a piece of meat and she deserves a man who would not treat her like that, a man who would live in God's holiness and purity and a man that would never steal something that she preserves for the one and only guy who has the key to evoke that greatest desire given by God to those who love eternally.

for the first time, she didn't feel bad being treated like that by some lunatic maniac because she carries conviction - God is with her every step of the way. no one could turn her down. she's special. she's the King's daughter.

Inspiration

after my informal interview, i stayed at the building's garage as i watched TV patrol waiting for my friend being interviewed inside. i made myself a cup of coffee again that was my third. my head was throbbing in pain. i was so hungry too. bored as i was, a man sitting beside me talked. he asked me several questions about my educational background and it surprised me when he asked,

"you have a boyfriend, don't you?" he smiled at me.

"i don't have." i laughed.

"seriously? you're kidding, right?" obviously, he didn't believe.

"why do i need to lie about it? im not kidding. i dont have one." i grinned.

"really? but college students at this time need an inspiration. you need one. you need it."

"no. i dont need a boyfriend. not now" i asserted.

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it bugged me. do i need a boyfriend to inspire me? seriously? it's ridiculous. well, someday i will need a guy in my life to be with me, to inspire me, to love me, to care for me, to be my better half, to praise and worship our God who is the reason of our whole existence, to be the man whom i will share my heart with... just the guy that will make my heart skip a beat because he will be the reason of my heart disease as he will be the only one to cure it too. i know someday i will be with him but not now. i dont need him now because im already inspired and my inspiration is more than enough because He is God. my great God. He inspires me every step of the way. He's my best friend, my God, my father, my deliverer, my healer, my everything. rest assured that He's there with me always and forever. He will guide me and help me as i mend my broken soul, my broken heart then someday when im whole and ready to love again, He will give me the guy whom He preserves for me only. the guy who is worth the wait.

Time Was Never Enough

"hey, are you alright?" Cassie nudged her best friend who was staring blankly outside the window.

"huh?" Samantha moved her gaze over her shoulder and saw her confused best friend looking at her intently.

"i said are you alright? you've been acting weird since i got here. what happened?" Cassie already knew something happened but she waited for Sam to tell it to her instead.

"i met him. we talked for a while. he bid me goodbye. i went home. end of the story." Sam stood from where she sat for almost an hour staring blankly at the trees as they danced with the movement of the air and with the sound of the birds chirping.

"okay. it's no big deal." Cassie stopped herself before saying anything that would trigger unnecessary feelings to her disturbed best friend. she didn't want to pester her by asking the details of the recent encounter with her not-so-special someone. Sam looked mildly surprised for Cassie's affectless reply but was pleased nonetheless. she didn't want to talk about it either.

it was weird. Sam knew that it was over. it has been almost 5 months since their breakup but there was still something inside her that wanted to mend what has been broken. she sighed heavily and looked for something to do that could distract her from such irrational thoughts.

it was over. he loves somebody else. we're done. he's happy. i am too.

but was she truly happy? was it really over? for him, it was. but for her?

for how many times, she did convince herself that she's better off without him. she severed their contacts. she stopped seeing him. she didn't even check his accounts to avoid hearing news about him and his new girlfriend. like what others say, ignorance is truly bliss. she jst can't keep herself updated of what was happening between them. jst looking at a picture of the guy she once had with his new girl was suicide and she can bear it no more. it was sheer torture. she lost her life's vigor when he left her and she can't afford to lose it twice so she started living a new life completely without him, pretending that he didn't exist. it was difficult at first after living their world together for almost 2 years but with pure determination and fear of suffering more pain, she finally had kept her life moving forward until they unexpectedly met again.

he seemed happy. he looked awesome as usual. with his glinting smile and piercing eyes, it wouldn't be completely out of question to spread some of his charms that could melt her instantly with just one glance. at that second, an impelling realization had come to her mind. she missed him so much. then suddenly she remembered a story she read a while ago,

((A little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.

The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter:

"Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river."

The little girl said:

"No, Dad. You hold my hand."

"What's the difference?" Asked the puzzled father.

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl.

"If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go."

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather than expecting them to hold yours...))

will she still hold his hand? what will happen though if she did?

you hurt me enough. i suffered enough but maybe it won't hurt a bit to say for the last time that i love you. i always do. i don't care if you love somebody else because it will pain me more not to let you know before i bid my last goodbye.

Sam imagined saying it personally in front of him. she was standing right up against him, her face inches from his, their hearts pounding, their eyes bore into each other's, unflinching and filled with emotions. they stayed that way for a few moments, but for all she knew, she would have imagined it for eternity if that was the only way to bring him back.

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RESULTA NG PAGBABASA NG LOVE STORIES.

HAHA! ;))

sleepyhead ~.~

To Love Again?

"are you alright?" he looked at her eyes intently.

"of course i am. im fine. dont worry." she tried to avoid his gaze but such eyes were insistent.

"how could i not worry? i always care." he sat beside her and wrapped his arms around her. slowly she relaxed against him.

"i know you do." she twisted to look over her shoulder. he held her face and moved closer.

"you just know it but you cant feel it. thats what pains me. what should i do to make you love me? do i need to tell it every single day that i love.." she resisted as he tried to draw her to him.

"no, you dont need to. i feel it. seriously." she sighed and held his gaze for a long time. she believed what he said.

"then why are you pushing me away? i promise i can be the guy that you want. i can be everything that you wish for. i can love you with my whole heart. i can take care of you. i can.." he grabbed her face and kissed her. she pushed him away and shot a look at him.

"go on. love me as much as you can but i cant love you back. i just cant and i wont."

"oh. so you're seeing someone right now?" he shrugged, taking that in and trying to ignore the piercing pain from what she just said.

"no. im not seeing or dating anyone."

he breathed a sigh of relief, "then what's stopping you from liking me? am i not lovable? im doing everything i can to be perfect for you. i wanna be the man for you. i will give you everything. believe me." he went down on his knees with a teary eye.

"miko, listen to me. you're a good man. you're attractive. you're smart and responsible enough to handle a relationship but im not the girl you're looking for." she made the smallest of sounds but it was filled with such sincerity.

"how could you possibly say that?" he frowned but that was the time for patience so he controlled himself from impulsive acts then he continued, "well i guess you're not yet ready. id wait.." but before he could finish his words, she interrupted.

"no, miko. you cant understand. how could you wait for someone who doesnt even know where to start?"

"but you've moved on already, right? we can start a new life together. id help you mend what has been broken"

"im not broken and ive moved on already." she stood, ready to walk away.

he grasped her arm and turned her to face him. "i wont give up on you."

she smiled and sighed, "thank you, miko, but i just cant accept what you can offer because i cant give them back. look, how could i love again if i already gave my heart away?"

Why Worry?

July 24, 2011

my notes from Pastor Celso's preaching.

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"The Bible is the answer for everything. It's a mystery that is revealed to those who believe."

read Matt. 5:1-11.. It is exclusive for us, Christians, to be an example for others who don't believe. Everything has been given by God. We just have to entrust our worries, problems, fears and the like to God and dwell on His word. If we're mindful of His word, we will win the battle. So why worry? We worry because we're powerless and clueless of what might happen.

Matt. 6:25-34

Do Not Worry

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?

28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.33 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.34

Don't worry about our life because God gave it. He made us. We have to live happy and joyful. Worrying has a devastating effect and it could harm our body. Instead, let us grow in the grace and the knowledge of the Bible. God is with us. If we worry, there are only two ways: 1. to our problem/worries and 2. to God. If only we focus on things above, then we have nothing to worry about. However, the sin in us is strong enough because we are unconscious of satan's schemes but did you know that satan is already defeated? If satan's already defeated, then what could he do to us? Are we battling against him? No, we are not battling against satan but we are battling against our own selves. We tend to forget that we are God's children and for that, we are more than conquerors so don't let satan pull us down in his subtle ways. We have to stand firm. The Lord will provide. It's just a matter of time so we have to wait patiently and rejoice in the Lord always no matter what situation we are in. When we feel worried, PRAY and when we pray, be specific and direct to the point. Speak the truth without reservations. We don't have to be eloquent in our prayers. God looks at the heart and the intent of man. Also, if we ask something from God, avoid making promises like "Lord, if I pass this bar exam, I will give myself to you wholeheartedly." and the like, because God can't be mocked. Saying such promises to God means testing His sovereignty over us. Always remember that He knows BEST. The Bible says in Jeremiah 33:3 3 ‘Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.’ Just say what we want and believe that God will provide but of course, we must seek Him first and His righteousness then all these things shall be added unto us.

5 Things that we do when we worry:

1. We disbelieve the providential care of God.

2. We question the integrity of God.

3. We dump God's promises.

4. We believe the lies rather than the truth.

5. We exalt the devil than God.

Satan is happy when we worry because worrying is one of his ways to steal us from trusting our GREAT GOD. God's promises are true. It will never be broken. When God says He will provide and give us everything that we ask for, He will surely do. It's just a matter of time and faith. But if ever He didn't grant our prayers, then be thankful because God has a better plan for us. He will give something far better than we're asking for so STOP worrying! Learn to trust and obey God wholly and do our part as His faithful and obedient children.

Thank you Lord for Your word. I badly need this.

woot~ I must stop worrying about my grades. Pasado na ako! WAHAHAHA! ooppss.. of course I must do my part. wokay. STUDY na ;)

It's All About LOVE

What Love Says

By Max Lucado

“Love covers a multitude of sins.” 1 Peter 4:8, NASB

Have you ever heard anyone gossip about someone you know? . . . What do you have to say?

Here is what love says: Love says nothing. Love stays silent. “Love covers a multitude of sins.” Love doesn’t expose. It doesn’t gossip. If love says anything, love speaks words of defense. Words of kindness. Words of protection.

No Strings Attached

By Max Lucado

“While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8 NIV

When we love with expectations, we say, “I love you. But I’ll love you more if . . .”

Christ’s love had none of this. No strings, no expectations, no hidden agendas, no secrets. His love for us was, and is, up front and clear. “I love you,” he says. “Even if you let me down. I love you in spite of your failures.”

God So Loved Us

By Max Lucado

“If God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.” 1 John 4:11, NKJV

Jesus humbled himself. He went from commanding angels to sleeping in the straw. From holding stars to clutching Mary’s finger. The palm that held the universe took the nail of a soldier.

Why? Because that’s what love does. It puts the beloved before itself.

A Pure Heart

By Max Lucado

“May the Lord lead your hearts into God’s love and Christ’s patience.” 2 Thessalonians 3:5

The majority is not always right. If the majority had ruled, the children of Israel never would have left Egypt. They would have voted to stay in bondage. If the majority had ruled, David never would have fought Goliath. His brothers would have voted for him to stay with the sheep. What’s the point? You must listen to your own heart.

God says you’re on your way to becoming a disciple when you can keep a clear head and a pure heart.

Wonderful Comfort

By Max Lucado

“What a wonderful God we have . . . who so wonderfully comforts and strengthens us.” 2 Corinthians 1:3, TLB

Encourage those who are struggling. Don’t know what to say? Then open your Bible . . .

To the grief stricken: “God has said, ‘Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you’” (Heb. 13:5 NIV)

To the guilt-ridden: “There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus” (Rom. 8:1 NIV).

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Lord, thank you for Your love. I pray that You teach me how to love like You have loved me. Teach me how to forgive like You have forgiven all my sins. And most of all, teach me how to forget and to start a new life again.. with You.. only You.. Comfort me with Your loving arms. Wipe away my every tear with Your healing hands.. Mend my broken soul with Your everlasting love.

In Jesus' name, AMEN.