You really can't study properly when your eyes are drowning in its own tears. A heart that hates is a heart that hurts.

When I cry, it just means that this hate is too overwhelming. My emotion is too strong. There are bad things that I really really want to do yet there's still Someone up there who helps me calm down. I just cry and cry and cry. The pain is too deep. I've been hiding this for so long.

I tried to call a friend who is very special to me. She didn't answer my call or maybe, she wasn't able to. Good thing. This will make me stronger, having just myself to face this.

I'm extremely mad. I'm terribly hurt.