Time Was Never Enough

"hey, are you alright?" Cassie nudged her best friend who was staring blankly outside the window.

"huh?" Samantha moved her gaze over her shoulder and saw her confused best friend looking at her intently.

"i said are you alright? you've been acting weird since i got here. what happened?" Cassie already knew something happened but she waited for Sam to tell it to her instead.

"i met him. we talked for a while. he bid me goodbye. i went home. end of the story." Sam stood from where she sat for almost an hour staring blankly at the trees as they danced with the movement of the air and with the sound of the birds chirping.

"okay. it's no big deal." Cassie stopped herself before saying anything that would trigger unnecessary feelings to her disturbed best friend. she didn't want to pester her by asking the details of the recent encounter with her not-so-special someone. Sam looked mildly surprised for Cassie's affectless reply but was pleased nonetheless. she didn't want to talk about it either.

it was weird. Sam knew that it was over. it has been almost 5 months since their breakup but there was still something inside her that wanted to mend what has been broken. she sighed heavily and looked for something to do that could distract her from such irrational thoughts.

it was over. he loves somebody else. we're done. he's happy. i am too.

but was she truly happy? was it really over? for him, it was. but for her?

for how many times, she did convince herself that she's better off without him. she severed their contacts. she stopped seeing him. she didn't even check his accounts to avoid hearing news about him and his new girlfriend. like what others say, ignorance is truly bliss. she jst can't keep herself updated of what was happening between them. jst looking at a picture of the guy she once had with his new girl was suicide and she can bear it no more. it was sheer torture. she lost her life's vigor when he left her and she can't afford to lose it twice so she started living a new life completely without him, pretending that he didn't exist. it was difficult at first after living their world together for almost 2 years but with pure determination and fear of suffering more pain, she finally had kept her life moving forward until they unexpectedly met again.

he seemed happy. he looked awesome as usual. with his glinting smile and piercing eyes, it wouldn't be completely out of question to spread some of his charms that could melt her instantly with just one glance. at that second, an impelling realization had come to her mind. she missed him so much. then suddenly she remembered a story she read a while ago,

((A little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.

The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter:

"Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river."

The little girl said:

"No, Dad. You hold my hand."

"What's the difference?" Asked the puzzled father.

"There's a big difference," replied the little girl.

"If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go."

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond. So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather than expecting them to hold yours...))

will she still hold his hand? what will happen though if she did?

you hurt me enough. i suffered enough but maybe it won't hurt a bit to say for the last time that i love you. i always do. i don't care if you love somebody else because it will pain me more not to let you know before i bid my last goodbye.

Sam imagined saying it personally in front of him. she was standing right up against him, her face inches from his, their hearts pounding, their eyes bore into each other's, unflinching and filled with emotions. they stayed that way for a few moments, but for all she knew, she would have imagined it for eternity if that was the only way to bring him back.

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RESULTA NG PAGBABASA NG LOVE STORIES.

HAHA! ;))

sleepyhead ~.~