Tongue Tied

June 6, 2012

The moment you left, I knew I had something to say that I can never tell you...
At least not in person.

We're not as close as I thought we were
Things get different when they're around
Awkward.
I'm always hesitant to approach you but still, I do
I try to take up with you
Because I don't want to waste any minute 
But they're watching,
And strangely enough, talking to you appears wrong since I don't belong
I don't know where to stand
Your friends are mere acquaintances to me
And yes, I noticed it doesn't seem right for them
To see us together; chatting, laughing like normal friends
It doesn't feel right
What more if you've finally made up your mind,
Realized where you should be, where you would be happy
And what if I'm not a part of it?
Maybe I should start letting you go
As a friend, I don't know
Because I'm not sure what I mean to you
Maybe I am just right
We're not as close as I thought we were
I feel out of place when they're around
Maybe I'm just a fucking nobody, trying to reach out
Calling you, texting you constantly
And maybe you're just being nice to reply
I'm pretty sure that if I stopped,
You wouldn't even bother
But see, I'm not stopping
You know why?
Because I'm afraid,
Afraid to prove myself right

I might be feeling something more than I can admit - you never can tell.