Nothing But My Toy

June 24, 2012

HAHAHA. Please don't give meaning to this. I'm just bored. I just want to write something new. Something that's not about love, life.. because this is something about being a... just find it out. Hoho. 

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You kissed me

Nothing special

You hugged me

Just like my pillow

You cuddled with me

No butterflies in my tummy

You stared at me

I longed for him

You got offended

I didn't care

You had many girls

I wasn't one of them

You lied to me

As if I didn't know

You said that you love me

As if you can truly love

You are my friend

But sometimes a foe

You had my body

But not my heart

You were my first

My first toy ever

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Please don't take this personally. I just love to write about whatever comes to my mind.

I May...

June 22, 2012

I'm soooo bored. I opened this blog and this is all I got. Tadah *drools* LOL

K. Fine ~.~

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I may flirt with somebody else

I may like somebody else

I may ignore you sometimes

Because you don't recognize me

I may kiss somebody else

I may hug somebody else

I may forget you sometimes

But at the end of the day, it's you that I long for

I may be annoying to you

I may lie just to impress you

I may spend too much time on you

But I just do them because I want to be with you

I may not be the right one for you

Even though I tried to be

But yes, I can't and will never be

It was written in non-erasable ink

I may regret telling you what I feel

I may feel like a dumb for doing so

I may hate myself for being impulsive

But what can I do to make you like me

I may seem desperate enough

Obsessed and infatuated

I may get jealous for no reason

I may get hurt but you don't mind

I may be overreacting

I may do stupid things

I may waste my time just staring

At your pictures I can't resist

I may be in love...

...I may be wrong

I may be right...

...I may not know

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you may not know...

Sana

June 16, 2012

sinimulan ko ang tulang ito noong Hunyo 15 at ngayon ko lang siya tinapos. hoho.

this is for creative writing purposes only. no person involved xD

paalala lng. badtrip ksi pg may ngcomment na nmn. lol.

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Ilang buwan na ang nakalipas nang

Ika'y tuluyan kong kinalimutan

Hindi madali ang pinagdaanan

Lalo na kung sa bawat araw

Bawat oras ika'y nasa isip

Hinahangad na sana andito ka pa rin

Sa aking tabi tulad noon, tulad ng dati

Ngunit sa kabila ng lahat

Pinilit kong mamuhay ng wala ka

Kahit minsan gusto nang sumuko

Ng pusong ikaw lang ang sinisigaw

Ikaw lang ang kailangan

Kahit sino hindi mapapantayan

Dahil tanging ikaw aking mahal

Ano nga bang magagawa ko

Kung hindi mo kayang suklian

Ang pag-ibig kong para sa'yo lamang

Pero wala namang kapalit ang lahat

Kahit nasaktan na't iniwan

Hindi ko kayang magalit sa'yo

Pinili ko kasing mahalin ka ng todo

Nakakasama lang talaga ng loob

Na makita kang nasasaktan sa kanya

Ngunit ano bang magagawa ko

Kung mahal mo siyang talaga

Sana magbago ang ihip ng hangin

Sana akin ka na lang ulit

Sana tayo na lang kahit saglit

Kathang Isip Lamang

June 14, 2012

at dahil ang sarap tumambay sa football field, at dahil may dalawang naglalampungan sa banda roon.. hoho

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Malamig ang simoy ng hangin na nalalanghap ko

Habang sumasayaw ang bawat dahon sa mga punong nakapaligid

Sa akin at ninanamnam ang init ng sikat ng araw

Mas mainam sana kung narito ka sa aking piling

Tulad ng dalawang magkasintahan na naghaharutan

Doon sa ilalim ng punong nag-iisang nagdurusa

Tulad kong nakatanaw rin sa matamis nilang pagsasama

Nagmamahalan na parang wala nang bukas

Nagpapaloko sa bawat sandaling sila'y masaya

Hindi nila alam na matatapos rin ang lahat

Hindi ba ganun ang nangyari sa atin?

Minsan rin tayong naniwala na pang-habang buhay na

Pero heto nauwi rin sa wala

Pawang kathang isip lamang pala

To A Proud Dad

I wrote this poem for my friend's dad :)

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I may never know him the way you do

I may never know you the way he did

But I believe he's somewhere, everywhere

Looking after the princess he raised

You're one of a kind, a precious one

A gift from heaven to a blessed man

To other people he shared what he had

He touched their hearts with helping hands

His life can never be put to waste

For he had been a treasure to many

He left with honor and dignity

A great man worthy of history

If only he could see how you have grown

Like a full-blown rose, beautiful and free

There's no doubt he would be so proud of you

You've been the best daughter one could ever be

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She will be loved forever.

I'm Sorry

June 10, 2012

because Im so inspired to write. thanks to that awesome blogger :)))

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You may hate me for what I'd say

But I can't lie to you, not anymore

The first time we met wasn't something noteworthy

Since then I knew you weren't someone special

Until now that I proved myself unmistakably right

You are just another one I'll left behind

I may act like I like you that much

But I never did and never will

I'm not someone who'd fall for someone like you

Someone who is not even worthy of being liked

Maybe it's too mean to say that but

Yes you are nothing, nothing to me

My sorry is not enough to appease

Whatever you may feel while reading this

Anyway, apology is not in my vocabulary

Especially when it comes to you, I don't really care

I just wonder if you'll get hurt because

I remember you don't have a heart that beats

Be thankful enough that there's someone stupid

Enough to love you, if that's real love

Someday you'll realize why I said what I said

From your sweet nightmares you will wake

Wish upon a star that you never met me

But it's too late 'coz I'm your biggest mistake

Minsan

Minsan na akong nangarap. Minsan na rin akong nasaktan. Wala namang dahilan upang masaktan. Pinangarap lang naman kita. Iyon lang naman. Sa tinagal tagal ng panahon, ikaw pa rin. Ikaw talaga. Ikaw na lang sana. Huminto ako sa pagdarasal na ika'y mapasa-akin nang minsan akong nabigo. Inilabas ko ang lahat ng sakit sa iyak at ginugol ang buong oras sa mga bagay na makapagpapalimot sa'yo. Ngunit hindi talaga maiiwasan na bago matapos ang araw, lilitaw sa aking isipan ang lalaking minsan kong pinangarap, ang lalaking minsan kong pinagmasdan at hiniling sa Maykapal.

Sinikap kong maging isang prinsesa para sa prinsipeng tulad mo. Nakakatawa mang isipin ngunit kung sino ako ngayon, kung ano man ang mga kaya kong gawin at ipagmalaki, iyon ay dahil sa'yo. Tinuruan mo akong abutin ang mga bagay na akala ko'y hindi ko kaya. Tinuruan mo akong lumipad na parang ibon sa kalangitan, malaya at may lakas ng loob sa kabila ng mga unos na maaari kong harapin. Ikaw ang nagsilbing inspirasyon dahil minsan kong ninais na maging karapat-dapat sa iyo. Ngunit kahit na anong pagsisikap ang gawin ko, minsan aking napagtanto na hindi mo ako kayang gustuhin. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit. Tinalikuran ko sila para sa iyo at heto ako, naiwang mag-isa. Nangarap sa isang bagay na walang patutunguhan.

Pero siguro mali rin ako. Hindi pa naman huli ang lahat at minsan na akong nagkamali nang napatunayan kong hindi naman pala kayo ng babaeng pinagseselosan ko. Minsan ko ring kinapalan ang aking mukha upang sabihin sa'yo ang lahat ng nararamdaman ko. Minsan lang iyon pero hanggang ngayon nakaukit pa rin sa aking puso't isipan kung paano ako nabihag ng minsan kong pagtingin sa iyo.

Kapag tinatanong nila kung ano ba ang meron ka na wala sa kanila, isa lang ang sagot ko:

Handa akong mahalin ka ng buong buhay ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ikaw. Basta ang alam ko lang, ikaw talaga.

Pareho man tayo ng pinagdaraanan ngayon, nananalig ako sa Diyos na mapagtatagumpayan natin ito. Hindi na ako umaasa na minsan ay mapapansin mo rin ako. Tanging Siya lamang ang nakakaalam kung sino ba talaga ang para sa atin. Ito na siguro ang pagkakataon na ikaw ay isuko bilang aking pangarap. Hindi dahil hindi na kita gusto. Hindi dahil hindi ako karapat-dapat sa iyo. Hindi dahil may gusto na akong iba. At mas lalong hindi dahil napapagod na ako.

Isusuko ko ang isang pangarap na minsan kong inabot bagkus nais kong ika'y maging panalangin na balang araw ay diringgin ng Panginoon.