How could you still love someone you never had? How could I?

Maybe there will always be a part of me that will long for you. Or maybe not. 

There was a time when I lost myself in a relationship but time passed by and I became a different person. Experiences change me and I just can't go back to where I came from because I don't recognize myself back then anymore. It wasn't me. I can't believe I did that. I was so immature, stupid, and so impulsive.

Things are different now yet I'm still capable of loving selflessly. 

It feels good to love... even in secret.

But maybe I'm in love no more. Maybe I'm just missing the feeling.

Well, I think the last two sentences seem more legit.

Every time I see less fortunate people, I close my eyes and pray to God to bless them and me as well to be able to share the blessings and love of Christ which is the true essence of Christmas.

I talked with this special someone a while ago. I'm so happy. No words can describe how joyful I am. Thank you, Lord. I hope this is a good sign for me to start a new life again. I really didn't expect this. I finally got over it.

So blessed. So happy. So loved <3

This is the perfect time that I can finally say that I have fallen out of love. Yes! It feels so real! Actually, I feel nothing. It's like normal, just ordinary. It wasn't the same as before when you know, there were butterflies in my stomach and all the nervous and giddy feelings. But now, there's nothing. 

I tried to remember my feelings for you but they were all gone. I'm so happy for myself. Yet I miss the feeling of having someone to make me smile. But I have to admit that a one-sided love is too exhausting. Thus the phrase 'having someone to make me smile' is not appropriate because first of all, I never had you. I never will.

And I care no more. 

I refuse to hear your voice as long as I can
Afraid that I would fall for you again

Yesterday I longed to see your smile
The memories we had I cherished for a while

Maybe today I am missing you so much
I wish tomorrow I could feel your touch
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Err.. I'm trying to compose a song but I'm not inspired enough. And this poem sucks. What's happening to me :/

Maybe the feelings are starting to fade away...

This is the time when I doubt my feelings for you. I just can't understand it really. Feelings change, I know. But it won't if it's true. I don't know. It's really confusing.

They say you can't love two persons at once. But you can like many people.

Wala lang. Senti lang hahahaha. Naguguluhan lang ako. Labo eh. LOL.

One thing I'm sure of, I loved you more. But if you make me choose now, I... I don't know. It would take me minutes to decide and ponder. Arti lungs :P

Anyway, I had a very happy day today :)))))

Even though we didn't win, it's worth the fight. 

I love you NCPAG Singing Administrators! Huhu. Last competition ko na ito. 

"Never assume unless otherwise stated."

I can't understand men. That's all.