She Was Dead And So Are You

June 1, 2012

woot~ The Girl in my Bed sequel.

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The sun hid behind cottony clouds

Up above the stars brightly shone

The sky painted itself in dark blue

Where the crescent moon stayed up alone

All night I refused to succumb

To the tempting call of sleep desire

Waiting for her to appear again

I closed the lights to feel her presence

I yearn to touch her face and feel

That cold fingertips causing tingling

I yearn to see her eyes so deep

So deep that I drown in curiosity

Again I lay my head on my pillow

Wishing for her to stare at my window

I long to dry those tears in her eyes

Or to hug her tight while she gently cries

I waited 'til the streak of the moonlight

Illuminated her once pale face

As I looked through her unflinchingly

Her eyes so deep let me ignite

I refused to speak and scare her away

Yet the way she moved so light as a feather

Amused me so much that I wanted to ask

How can a dead girl be so beautiful?

She cried no more, her fear disappeared

I came closer and closer and gently

Held her hands so soft and decayed

Pulled her close and  hugged her fervently

She was dead and of that I was sure

Buried memories kept flashing through

My mind so innocent, blameless and pure

No! She can't be, she can't be you

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im still trying to figure out who the girl was. hoho. charot!

well, it's just that i cant end the story yet.

'coz it's not yet over...

The Girl In My Bed

May 31, 2012

I was actually trying to compose a new song last night. While I was writing the lyrics, I found myself writing a poem? instead. I wasn't sure how and why I wrote this. hoho.

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The moment I lay my head on my pillow

I saw a girl staring at the window

She smiled at me sweetly like yours

I blinked my eyes and she was gone

She faded like mist, like shadow in darkness

She was there, I was sure she was there

I saw her face as white as the ceiling

Her hair was black like crows on farm

It wasn't that I'm not scared to look

But I found her too beautiful to fear

Staring at me with an unblinking eye

She reached me with her fingertips

Her fingertips were cold as ice

But it wasn't the way I felt it

She was real, not my hallucination

Silent tears ran down her cheeks

Her eyes were filled with fear, I gazed

I was supposed to feel the same

But a sweet smile suddenly appeared

From her pale lips untouchable it seemed

I closed my eyes for a minute and breathed

Convincing myself I was just dreaming

I never let my eyes open again

To witness a girl crying in my bed

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Hmmm...

Nanlamig Na Init

'coz writing this will make me feel better at least
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Minsan hindi mo mapapansin

Lumilipas ang oras at unti-unting

Nalilimutan ang bawat sandali

Ng paghihintay sa muli mong pagbalik

Isang araw aking napagtanto

Nabalewala ang  pag-ibig sa iyo

Ayoko na sanang isipin ngunit

Nananaig ang pait at galit

Sabi nila kung tunay mong mahal

Wag susuko at iyong ipaglaban

Wag indahin kung nasasaktan

Patuloy na idasal sa Maykapal

Sadyang kalokohan ang lahat ng 'yon

P'ano maipadarama sa taong bato

Sa taong walang imik at walang kibo

Ang pusong wagas at handang ihandog

Pero salamat at nagising ako

Mula sa ilang buwang pagtingin sa'yo

Sa tapat ng salamin aking nakita

Nararapat sa akin ay higit pa

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'coz this is what I feel as of the moment.
 

Simply Missing You

April 25, 2012

'coz you inspire me to write

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I emptied my heart in the midst of the night

My pillows were drenched in droplets of tears

Sadness stole the brightness of the moonlight

Draped in shivering silhouette of fears

Breaking away from your captivity

You hold me tighter than I can contain

Undo the spell that has blinded me

But let my love for you remain

 

The fire in your eyes is set ablaze

Insatiable passion drives me weak

I yearn to touch that impeccable face

An ethereal being I'll always seek
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this is for you <3

Unread

April 23, 2012

During Geog 1 class 11-1 pm, I wrote this poem.

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Sa bawat araw na dumaraan

Hindi maiwasang ika'y maisip

Wag na sana akong pahirapan pa

Ako'y tuluyang nahuhulog na

Sa bawat minutong lumilipas

Nanghihinayang sa dumaang oras

Huli na nang ika'y makilala

Ngayon pang ika'y lilisan na

Hiling kong huminto ang pag-ikot ng mundo

Kasabay ang pagtibok ng aking puso

Upang maiwasan ang patak ng luha

At sakit na maaaring idulot mo

Dahil sa tuwing ika'y kasama

Nabubuo ang mga alaala

Mga gunitang 'di malilimutan

At hindi na maibabalik pa

Siguro nga hindi mo pansin

Kung gaano ka kahalaga sa'kin

Nakakapanghina kasing isipin

Na baka ako'y balewalain

Ngunit kahit huli at kulang ang oras

Hindi ko hahayaang dumating ang bukas

Na hindi ko nasasabi sa iyo

Mahal kita, paniwalaan mo
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I do.. love you.

Dead Drunk

April 23, 2012
coz it damn hurts
as if writing this will make me feel better
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Matatapos ba ang pagdurusa
Sa isang bote ng coca-cola
Mawawala ba ang sakit
Pag uminom ng serbesa


Hindi ko naman nais mangyari
Ngunit nawala sa aking sarili
Hindi ko man tanggap pero heto na
Patawad, hindi ko na kaya


Mahirap nang umasa sa wala
Kaya ngayon nagmumukhang tanga
Kailangan kita, naiinitindihan mo ba?
Wag mo akong iwang nagiisa


Ako'y nagkamali, aminado ako
Ngunit paano magsisimulang muli?
Nasayang ang bawat pagkakataon
Na ikaw sana ang kapiling


Kung maibabalik lang ang kahapon
Hindi sana kita nilisan
Hindi sana tumalikod
Sa pag-ibig mong wagas


Huli na nga ba ang lahat?
Upang ako'y iyong mapatawad?
Natatakot akong lumapit muli
Walang mukhang maihaharap sa'yo


Dahil sa bawat saglit na ika'y lumapit
Binalewala ko ang tulad mo
Nabulag sa isang bagay na ngayon
Ay nagdudulot ng kapighatian
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my pen and paper described it all

Lost and Found

January 8, 2012

While our pastor was preaching, I can't stop my fingers from writing this poem.

Deeply hurt because I know I always fail Him.

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Lost and Found

Finding my way back home

I'm getting lost, got nowhere to go

It's been a while since I've found You

Yet again, I'm running away

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I knew I shouldn't have turned left

'Coz You've told me to walk along with You

I stopped, it was my mistake

I got tired, the flesh is weak

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I see You from afar with open arms

You welcome me with unfailing love

Your light shines, illuminating the dark

I long to be with You but I fail

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I promised that this year would be ours

I want to offer my life to You

To worship You and sing You praises

To tell the world how great You are

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You are there and always will be

I drown in Your love, I can barely breath

I commit sins that stumble my feet

But You're still faithful and just to forgive

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You don't give up on me, why my Lord?

Your precious heart, I break it every time

I'm not worthy but You're loving me

A sinner clothed by the majestic King